Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Rough night

Almost at breaking point. I called SixtySix…twice. No answer. I think about calling the ex. Then I decide that if I did that, it might send the wrong message. I stop myself before dialling the last number. I step back, look at the situation and re-evaluate. It’s not that bad. I stop feeling the need to cry. I can go back in with my family. All I needed was a hug anyways. I decide to go to dad instead. He gives me the support I need and everything is better. Still not fixed, but better. Tomorrow is another day. I will go to the library to prepare for finals, class and then work. After work, I will go to a roof party at SixtySix and Darwin’s place.

It sucks...

I went to his house. We watched Across the Universe. We had a few drinks and went out into the rain. It wasn’t pouring so it wasn’t all that fun. We went back inside. He fell into his bed and I sat beside him. We talked for a while and I passed out lying beside him. Nothing happened. I wanted to tell him how I felt but somehow the courage just didn't come to me. In the morning his cell phone rings. It’s his ex. He took a blanket and his phone and into another room. I slept for another hour and came home to study for finals. Nothing happened. Oh well, as long as he’s happy.

So I get home and my sister is in her car crying, her two year old playing with the horn and radio buttons. I ask if everything is alright and she says yes but I know that it isn’t. I take her son to the park to give her some time alone. I don’t study for finals.

Monday, April 7, 2008

Virgin. De-flowered.

So this is my first ever blog post and I've hardly ever even READ blogs let alone try to create my own, but, here it goes.

I don't really have much to say right now even though my life is filled with drama from all angles; boys, family, friends, school. Maybe its better to not think about it so much and just let it be. I feel like no matter how many terrible things are going on in my life, I'll always have my core group of friends who will ALWAYS be there for me ready to rock out and help me let loose when I get too stressed.
Thanks guys.